I'm not sure which road to take. I'm ultimately stuck at a crossroads, blocked by thoughts that desire both directions; doubt floods my body with a despair so familiar. Two options, one to be decided this summer and one to be decided should the opportunity present itself, yet which tugs at my heart more? The complexity of the contemplation shatters my mind into a million different pieces, each analyzing the outcomes with a different perspective, a different scenario to depict the life that could be lived.
The past few days have been absolutely remarkable, but for how long shall they last? Am I just an option or are there others too? If so, run the race or walk off the track, head held high? These are the unrelenting, the incredulous questions that my conscience insists on overanalyzing, but I know that these doubts will get me nowhere I want to be, especially considering what has happened in the past. I recall making an Instagram picture today, the photo was my own, but the quote wasn't. To me the quote said something about where I want to go with my life, while sort of teaching me a lesson; live the present moment.
As for the other option, I feel that I have enough time decide whether or not I want to follow through with it; however, given the time frame seems long, it will be here in the blink of an eye.
I don't have much competition in me nor do I know where I want to end up, but this clearly outlines the brilliance of life; our destinies aren't predetermined, nor can we control them as we see fit. One can only hope that what one desires turns out the way one wants it to.
Learn from yesterday, live for today and ultimately hope for tomorrow.
